Question asked by naina
great pastor,
i have complited 100000 short or essense mantra of vajrasttva. but i was not satisfied with myself. so, i stared long mantra. each day i can do one mala as i am housewife cant give more time; in that way it will take 3 to 4 years to complete 100000 mantra. now my inner condition is unbearable, its really painful. i am still holding tight. we are planning child and my husband cant wait more, he is not buddhist. he waited for so long. now i am afraid child is going to feel all what i am feeling. what should i do?is there anyway .i dont understand. i dont wanna quit the purification process. the inside numbness and emotionless state i am feeling i dont want anyone to feel. show me the way so i can complete the process.