Question asked by Dead end
I feel that my children were born to take away my money and give me problems maybe due to past bad karma. What can I do to remedy the situation because I really find no more meaning in life. As for my husband I have divorced him as he is also useless but I can't just push away my children. They have given me much anguish. Please help me find a way to solve my problems without having to end my life because I know it is wrong.
Dear Dead End,
I am truly sorry for the situation you find yourself in. In Buddhism there are many practices that can help, from alleviating our immediate problems to our deepest affliction which is ignorance.
Ending your own life will indeed cause you more negative karma. You have said that you have divorced your husband, this shows that you are trying to take control of your the situation as best as you knew how and are trying to take responsibility. As you divorced your husband however, your children became your responsibility. No matter how they act now, they can change. They just need to see that there is a better way to behave than they are now.
If you are able to change and show them how to live a good, harmonious and compassionate life, they will be able to see how they can also live.
For now,I suggest that you engage in the Guru Yoga of Lama Tsongkhapa and the practice of Dorje Shugden.
An explaination of the Guru Yoga can be found here: https://www.tsemrinpoche.com/tsem-tulku-rinpoche/me/tsongkapas-daily-practice-video-commentary.html. This will be helpful in stabilizing your mind and dealing with negative emotions, where as the practice of Dorje Shugden will assist you in removing your obstacles.
Apart from this you should study up and apply the Buddhist teachings such as the Lam Rim, which will help you on a deeper level. You have my sincere wishes.