Question asked by Die
I keep on failing and started to lose hope in self transformation. I wanted to transform but keep failing, not to say that I afraid of failing but is time wasting, and I really do not have much time. I wanted to quit and escape but I do not have the option this is because the future of other people life and career is depending on me, if I quit I might destroy their life. I am stuck and have huge mental obstacle, I am confuse and do not know what to do and have the feeling of commit suicide. This negativity stop me in my education, my career, and my spiritual life. However, through my research I have found out by identifying how our ignorance manifest as thoughts can be an alternative method of transformation but do not know how to expand it and apply it in to my life due to my mental obstacle. My mind keep chasing after thoughts, drive me crazy. Please guide me with the dharma, increase my maturity to overcome this problem. Tq.
Dear Die,
Ask yourself why you are in this situation. It is because you have created the karma to be in this situation and to have such experiences. So take responsibility and do not blame others for your failure. You have not described your negative thoughts and “mental obstacles” but most probably you are not facing the truth about yourself. Your description of your problems show how much you are focusing on yourself, your failures, suffering and wanting to “escape”. In other words, you want to be free from your suffering. Your emotional state makes you unhappy. But real freedom and happiness can only come from cherishing others, by giving your time, care, attention and love to them. It’s time to stop focusing on yourself and start developing love and compassion for your family, friends, colleagues and even people you don’t know. By doing so, you will find peace, stability and happiness. Happiness is a state of mind that is free from selfish emotions. Find a Buddhist centre and listen to Dharma teachings. Learn how to transform your mind in the correct way as taught by Lord Buddha and great masters. In this Blog, H.E. Tsem Rinpoche gives many teachings on how to practise the Dharma and to overcome difficulties in daily life. I suggest you read Rinpoche’s books, for example, “Peace”, “How I make Myself Unhappy” and “Be Happy”. You can buy these books from Kechara Paradise outlets or order them through http://www.vajrasecrets.com.