Question asked by Jingyi
Dear Pastors,
My burning question is, how to deal with the loneliness in practice. Im a introverted girl and since months ago something happened to me and then my mother forbid me to be a buddhist, I have lost my only and best friend. She used to believe in Buddha and we used to study together but now she has converted herself to another religion. Every time I think of her my heart will sink. For some reason I have to pretend to follow her belief and so long it has driven me almost crazy. No friend of mine knows what actually happened and even if they know no one will understand .
The feeling of being unbearablely lonely always attacks me and when such moment falls I feel Im so far away from my guru. I have no idea how to pray at that time. All I can feel is just loneliness and helplessness.
Im not sure if I have made myself clear as my English is not so good. Thank you in advance.
Dear Jingyi,
I suggest you speak to a counsellor or a senior student in your centre. Tell them what happened and ask for advice. It is no use feeling sorry for yourself. If you are still keen to remain a Buddhist, you must overcome your problems by learning the Dharma and applying it to your life. Attend Dharma classes and do Dharma work to repay the kindness of your guru. This is the way to feel close to your guru – through your Dharma practice.