Heavenly feast or a dog?
(By Tsem Rinpoche)
(Beautiful painting by talented Keith Dowman)
This Mahasiddha is Kukkuripa (the dog lover). He loved dogs so much. When he meditated in the cave he had his doggie with him. She had kept him company for years in his cave. They shared bedding, food, water and company. When he gained high attainments, the Dakinis came to take him to Kechara Paradise. He was hesitant to go but the Dakinis insisted and he went with them.
He arrived at Kechara (Paradise/Buddha abode of Heruka and Vajra Yogini) and enjoyed teachings and feasts up there and they asked him to stay longer if not forever…. But he kept thinking about his doggie left alone in the cave. He felt guilty and missed her. Kukkuripa would use his psychic powers to see his poor doggie alone and hungry waiting for him at the cave while enjoying the attention of the Dakinis and feasts. The cave was dark and had no food. The doggie had to go out and find small tiny scraps of food and was getting skinny. Kukkuripa saw this and it pained him. Worried she was not getting enough food. He use to share the offerings of food he would get from people with her. Doggie and him would delightfully eat the food together. Kukkuripa had no attachments to ‘clean’ or ‘dirty’ in regards to sharing food with his dog. He had overcome this in his meditations. In ancient India, people would not co-habitate with a dog. It was considered unclean and filthy, but Kukkuripa had cast away those notions and loved his dog as she loved him. But he felt guilty to leave her alone while he was ‘enjoying’ himself in Kechara and could not stop thinking about his beloved dirty smelly dog in his cave alone…so he left Kechara Paradise and all it’s ‘delights’ for his doggie. He couldn’t abandon her. The Dakinis implored him to stay, but he was firm to return. The Dakinis said you will give up this paradise here for a mere dog???!! You can advance further in your meditations if you stay in Kechara and then help the dog later they attempted to persuade him. But Kukkuripa would not stay, he was loyal to his little dog as she had kept him company for many years in the lonely dark cave. She was loyal to him and how can he abandon her now. He couldn’t and he wouldn’t listen to the Dakinis. He left to join doggie. He never forget her companionship and loyalty. All the wonderful things in Kechara could not tempt him against his loyal friend the little doggie. He left everything for her.
So he finally left Kechara to the Dakinis dismay and went back to his cave to be with his dog so she won’t be alone. Doggie was delighted to see her master and wagged her tail so much!! She licked him and he hugged her! She was skinnier for not eating well these few days he noticed. He fed her and hugged her and loved his doggie…He went back to his routine of meditation, receiving food offerings and sharing his food with doggie. They were happy together. One day, when he was scratching her in her favorite place and she licked him so his eyes were closed, when he opened his eyes she had suddenly turned into a Dakini shimmering with lights! The brilliance of the lights lit up the whole cave in front of Kukkuripa!! Kukkuripa was astonished to behold the splendourous lady in front of him! Of course this Dakini must be the Queen Herself he realized, as Vajra Yogini which was Kukkuripa’s main Yidam he had meditated on her for years in the cave. And She said to Kukkuripa, “Well done, you gave up paradise to be with just a dog..it shows you have given up attachements and projections of pleasant and unpleasant, now your Dakini will give you the final paradise (enlightenment)!”
Kukkuripa attained full enlightenment blessed by Vajra Yogini by releasing the final subtle attachment to the non-existent self! After enlightenment his fame and name grew and many came to see him and he gave teachings to countless and benefitted many before he finally ascended to Kechara the second and final time. He was forever known as Kukkuripa the dog lover.
I love him so much!!! This is one of my favorite Mahasiddhas along with Badrapa, Shantideva, Ghantapa and a few others. I wanted to share this story with you. I wanted you to know that there are many great true stories like this one about Kukkuripa that are true and can be applied to our lives. To inspire us.
Tsem Rinpoche
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Such an inspiring and sweet story 💓 Appreciated their love, loyalty and kindness towards one another 🥰
Interesting audio narration of Kukkuripa’s story. The gentleman’s accent in the narration gives it more ‘flavour’. Enjoy!
https://video.tsemtulku.com/videouploads/comment-1543302715.mp4
Beautiful painting of Kukkuripa
Thank you for this article of Kukkuripa and his dog. To me, this story scatters the schematic understanding of “attachment” and “renunciation”. Kukkuripa demonstrated attachment to his dog and yet it is this exact quality that Buddha Vajrayogini praised and commended as having enunciated attachment and projections. How fascinating!
Beautiful story of Kukkuripa choosing a dog over a havevenly feast. Kukkuripa shared everything from food, water to bedding with his dog in the caves for years while he meditates. So much so he was known as Kukkuripa the dog lover.The dog to him is more a friend. Kukkuripa had given up all attachments to be with dog as he could bear the sufferings of the dog being alone and without foods.
Later only he realised the dog was actually Vajra Yogini and was attained full enlightenment and blessed by Vajra Yogini.
Thank you Rinpoche for sharing this beautiful and inspiriing teachings for us .To let go all attachments and always be compassion,caring,be kind and loving to all sentient beings.
I really enjoyed reading this story, Kukkuripa was such a great person being face with such a situation choosing heavenly feast over a dog. She wasn’t only a dog to him, she is his loyal friend who kept him company throughout his meditation. Sharing his bed, food, water and shelter was such a beautiful thing to do. Kukkuripa cannot bear the suffering of his dog starving and lonely while he feast up in paradise alone. He made his choice to return to his loyal companion instead, hence the dog finally revealed its true self to him as Vajrayogini. I like this moral story and lesson learnt.Thank you Rinpoche for this inspiring story.
That he would share his food with the dog and not bothered whether it is clean or unclean, at a time and in a place where dogs were shunned, just goes to show that Kukkuripa had given up attachments and projections of pleasant and unpleasant. That he could give up the feasts and attention of the Dakinis in Kechara and instead went back to caring for his dog, showed his love, kindness, feeling of equanimity and compassion for his dog that was his loyal companion.
So, if we can remember the teaching here to let go of attachments and projections, to always have love, compassion and equanimity for all sentient beings, then only can we progress towards attainments and enlightenment.
Mahasiddha Kukkuripa, the dog lover, shows us how true unattached love that goes beyond any trace of clinging to the non-existent self and to conventions, can release one from samsara and from all suffering and its causes, and lead one to full Enlightenment.
Kukkuripa had a dog that he loved tremendously, and that kept him company all the while he lived and meditated in his cave. They shared bedding, food, water and each other’s company. Kukkuripa had gained attainments, through his meditations, to relinquish all attachments to dualistic concepts like “clean” and “dirty”, with regard to sharing food and everything with his beloved filthy dog.
When KuKKuripa could do this, he was actually thinking out of the box of conventional norms and beliefs already.In ancient India, people would not co-habitate with a dog because it was considered ‘filthy’ and ‘unclean’ to do so. Kukkuripa , however, had cast away all those notions and truly loved the dog unreservedly as she loved him.
The litmus test came when Kukkuripa had gained high attainments and the Dakinis came to take him to Kechara Paradise. Although he overcame his hesitation to leave his beloved dog alone, and went with them, yet , while he was up in Kechara Paradise enjoying the teachings and the feasts, he missed and worried about his dog being left alone, with no one to look after her or find her food. He kept thinking of her, and felt guilty about her being abandoned like that.
Finally, he could not take it anymore. He left Kechara Paradise and went back to his cave to be with his dog. Despite admonitions from the Dakinis(who were shocked he chose the dog over the prospect of advancing in meditation and gaining higher attainments in Kechara Paradise), he left everything and came back to his beloved dog.
One day, not long after, he returned, his dog licked his eyes to close them. When he opened them again..lo and behold..in front of him was his dog, transformed into a dakini in shimmering light. It was the Queen of Kechara Paradise. It was Vajrayogini who had taken the form of a filthy dog, to become the close companion and beloved pet of Kukkuripa!
Vajrayogini then told Kukkuripa that his giving up Kechara Paradise just to be with his dog showed that he had given up all attachments to dualistic projections of pleasant and unpleasant. For this, he had finally attained to full enlightenment in Kechara Paradise!
After his enlightenment,Kukkuripa became very famous and gave many teachings to countless beings and benefited many. Later, he ascended to Kechara Paradise a second time, as a fully enlightened being!
I love this story because it shows how powerful is love for another being that can transcend boundaries and dualistic concepts and conventional norms and beliefs that are bound by dualistic thinking.
Dear Rinpoche,
Thank you for sharing the story of Mahasiddha Kukkuripa. This story show us that we should not be attached to anything in order for us to gain liberation from samsara. Kukkuripa had been into Kechara paradise and enjoyed the luxuries there. However, he decided to return to his old cave away from luxuries just to be with his doggie companion again.
This does not mean that Kukkuripa is attached to his dog. He is just being loyal and compassionate towards his dog. He cant stand to see his dog being hungry and lonely while he had all those luxuries in Kechara heaven.
In Vajrayogini’s tantra, our attachments are being used to gain attainments. When we release ourselves of any attachment , physically or mentally, we will be liberated.
Chris
Dear Rinpoche,
Thank you for sharing this story.At last I know i m not alone n it make feel very comfortable with my “life” now.I was born more inclined towards animals n I wonder is there any Kukkuripa meditation mantra available ?
Thanks in advance n appreciated.
Thanks Rinpoche for the sharing.
But i have one question here. The motivation to Kechara Paradise and the companion of the dog, which one is attachment???????
I really enjoyed reading this story, Kukkuripa was such a great person being face with such a situation choosing heavenly feast over a dog. She wasn’t only a dog to him, she is his loyal friend who kept him company throughout his meditation. Sharing his bed, food, water and shelter was such a beautiful thing to do. Dogs are such great loyal companions who are capable of showing such great love towards a human being. I wish being faced with the same situation many people would have done the same thing and not abandon such a great friend. Thank you for sharing this story Rinpoche.
Thank You Rinpoche for the posting.
I like the story of Kukkuripa, it’s simple to understand yet profile. The teachings is about not selfish, compassion and attachment. The teachings will help me to think for others first instead of me. Thanks Rinpoche.
This story kind of touched my heart as these days it is hard to find someone with true loyalty these days and this mahasiddha was so loyal to his dog that he discarded his own sense of cleanliness and even the happiness and joy of the pure lands. Sometimes, I wish that some of my friends were like that too, that they would not abandon me when things get difficult or tricky but sadly most of them did. I would not abandon my friends in times of need or in times where there are plenty as well.
Although be at Heaven will be happy. But….. i will prefer share food, drinks, bedding together with doggie. To me, they are not much different with human, just that cant talk.
Thank you Rinpoche to share such a inspire true story, i love true story and i love Kukkuripa!! ^^, Thank youu~~
this is really a beautiful story for Kukkuripa which show his great to the animal and even give up the his dream goal to be stay in paradise. i must admit that most of time if given a choice, we will choose for good one without consider any impact to other, we get use to think only ourself. we should learn for Kukkuripa not only focus on ourself, we need to help and think of other also .
Thank you Rinpoche for sharing this post. Two days ago, i saw a puppy walking on the road side with cars moving here and there. I have picked the puppy up, gave him milk, vaccinated him and kept him in my house for 3 days. Finally i was able to find the puppy a new owner to adopt him and the owner came to collect him this morning.
I truly understand Kukkuripa’s feeling after he left his dog alone in the cave while he was having feasts in Kechara. I pray for more people to treat animals with care and passion. Most importantly for the dogs’ owner never to abandon their dogs and must commit to take care of their dogs until their last breath.
Kukuripa’s loyalty to his dog is something amazing. And it was his loyalty that go him through. This story really reminded me of how loyalty can get us very far with our Dharma practice and with everything else in life…
This is a simple story with profound teaching. I like the story.
What I understand from the story is the feeling of pleasant or unpleasant is deluded by our delusions; if that’s the case heaven or hell is our delusions as well. So Kukkuripa does not attach to Kechara heaven to let his beloved dog suffer from loneliness and starving.
Kukkuripa the dog lover Mahasiddha – so loyal to his dog won him enlightenment.
Not many people will give up wealth and enjoyment for a dog, especially someone who has ascended to Kechara Paradise. But Kukkuripa is the exception. It is because of his no attachment to the luxury and enjoyment that he is able to give up all to be with his dog. This is a true example of love that know no barriers.
And he gained enlightenment because he is not attach to himself where he could eat together with his dog and the same food. I have not even reached a level close to him. Kukkuripa is someone who inspires and may we have the same strength to reach his level.
I will also choose sentient beings if these sentient beings cannot follow me to heaven. I’ll stay with them.
我不惊讶kukkuripa的决定,因为我们想要修行的最终的目的,除了是让自己能够脱离六道轮回,离苦得乐,而且也希望借由自己的明白或了解,可以引导更多的人达到离苦得乐的境界。独乐乐,不如众乐乐,如果换成是我,这也是我希望的修行目的,这才是修行真正可以利益大众的最终目标。
It is said when a compassionate person is with others, he/she always brings happiness and harmony. Because of the quality of such a person’s mind, simply seeing him or her makes one feel happy and contended. Even though such a person seeks no praise, good reputation or fame, people and beings of all respect admire and adore such a person. Beings, with such a person is already a good karmic merit, and able to help and do things for him and her will be a heavenly reward. Such is the perfect virtuous teacher that this “lucky dog” has the good karma to meet up with; at least to be truly nutured, help and freedfrom all sufferings – such a bodisattva with a perfect understanding and infinite compassion to work extensively for the sake of all beings! Om mani padme hum.
What a lovely lovely story. I love stories about animals and happy endings ! It’s a beautiful tale of loyalty, unconditional love and devotion.
Thank you Rinpoche for sharing this true story with us. I always love Rinpoche’s stories, especially when it’s about doggies!!
Thank you Rinpoche for sharing this great story. This really let me think further on what I would choose. I would not choose heaven because of the feast but I would choose it for the chance to advance in meditation and later have better power to help the dog. However, when i think further, heaven is just one of the 6 realms. it is still within the samsara. To save the dog maybe the right choice as helping people/beings may not be able to wait and it should be any time, any where…
Thank you Rinpoche for sharing this Mahasiddha achievement with us.Initially I thought that it was attachment that could not separate him from the dog (this is definitely wrong view)But after reading the story to the end,I could understand that it was out of compassion he could not abandon a true friend as she was a sentient being with feelings and not an object without life.No matter how unpleasant the cave was they could manage to find joy in their companionship . Abandonment for the sake of self interest did not cross his mind which he value sincerity and loyalty without agenda up most.
We certainly hope in time to come ,we could gain such high attainment of realization.
Outwardly it may look like Kukkuripa is attached to the dog. But as a Mahasiddha who had gained high attainments and is a true bodhisattva, he was not attached to the heavenly feast and chose to come back again to help those who needed help and are suffering.
My doggie my doggie… of course I will choose my doggie. How could my doggie not even come along? I would have grabbed my doggie if I could… and if I could not, how could I ignore his cries? Loyalty is one of the essence of being human not just compassionate.
Oh dear! as I was reading it, I thought me too will devolope “King like Buddhicitta” first, as I read on further I regret! sign…
Kukkuripa had a special relationship with his dog. I don’t think he knew then his dog was Vajrayogini. it seemed to me it was the final test when he was invited by the dakinis to go to Kechara Paradise and stay there forever so he can feast and learn more, instead of being with his loyal friend who stood thick and thin with him.
Kukkuripa cannot bear the suffering of his dog starving and lonely while he feast up in paradise alone. He made his choice to return to his loyal companion instead, hence the dog finally revealed its true self to him as Vajrayogini. I like this moral story and lesson learnt. Thank you again for this inspiring story.
During his time in the cave, he had overcame viewing his dog as an animal/pet. As mentioned, they shared everything, which to me means as family/friend on equal footing. When he was in Kechara Paradise upon gaining higher attainments, he overcame his view on happiness and willing went back to his companion. This was due to compassion for the suffering of the dog.
From this, I’ve learnt that we should practise for our enlightenment but we should have the compassion to help others during our journey. In this story its the dog, but could easily apply to our family members, friend and other sentient beings. For me the whole point of enlightenment is to help others out of suffering.
It is always very touching reading Mahasiddha stories. Thank you Rinpoche for sharing!
Heavenly feast would definitely not be my choice . But I would be attracted to the temptation offered by the Dakinis to stay in Paradise in order to attain higher qualities and then used them to help the dog . If I do that , the poor doggy could starve to death before I can even achieve the higher qualities ! Alas , the wisdom of emptiness and compassion of Kukkuripa are the qualities which I should aspire to achieve ! Thank you Rinpoche for this teaching .
I feel Kukkuripa is such a great practitioner and he had compassion for the dog who was a friend for him through his ordeals. The dog also was not an obstacle to his practice. And the fact he saw that being in kechara it not higher or better than being in a cave with a dog shows that he has given up all attachments to this is good and this is bad.
One of my favourite Mahasiddhas of all time =)
Dear Rinpoche,
Thank you for sharing this Story. I remember this story was in one of the 84 Mahasiddhas stories. I can remember this story well. Mahasiddha Kukkuripa compassion is so great. Especially when he gave up the “heaven” and decided to accompany the dog.
At my level now, i don’t think i can even give up the “heaven”
I might be selfish and just go to the “heaven” without my pets.
Through Mahasiddha Kukkuripa story, he teaches me to be kind towards animals, not just to give a morsel of food to them and end of the story, but, compassion towards them. Even feel for them.
Think more deeper, if we believe in Karma and reincarnate. Animal or pets that we see, might be a human once before. Maybe some one we love in our past life. How can we give up some one we love before and liberate ourself without them.If we are to be reincarnate as animal
do i want to be treated badly. This story once again urge me to think deeper and act more kind towards animals.
Thank you Rinpoche for always look for teaching material to teach us
Love
Freon
I like this: Kukkuripa choosing his beloved dog over Paradise!. Dog and animal -lovers must surely like this story. I love this story of unconditional love for another being. In that love there is no barrier between man and dog. They are as one. Mahasiddha Kukkuripa manifested a level of compassion that breached the bounds of conventionality and thus attained Enlightenment.
Thank you , Rinpoche, for this most lovely post.
Dear Lama
This story is very beautiful. In our path, there are numerous people and beings that help us to get through each day, month, and year. It may be the people we help or the people who help us. I am very grateful for every help that I have been receiving from others including strangers, new friends, old friends, etc. The Kukuripa’s story is beautiful because he does not leave his BFF, the dog although a paradise is being offered to him.
Thanks for sharing this post! I think that the story is about how we should be detached from our “happinessess”. Kukkuripa had so much compassion for his dog, he returned from a paradise to spend time to care for the dog. It was not that he was “attached” to the dog, although it outwardly looks like it, but in fact, he returned to the dog to take care of it as he saw that the dog was lacking care. He was overwhelmed by compassion. It is a very moving story.
I love Kukkuripa and his doggie’s story very much, very inspiring and something to ponder about :
Vajra Yogini She said to Kukkuripa, “Well done, you gave up paradise to be with just a dog..it shows you have given up attachements and projections of pleasant and unpleasant, now your Dakini will give you the final paradise (enlightenment). ”
To me when i reread the story and feel the love towards the dog, I would choose the dog too !
Thank you Rinpoche for sharing this amazing post!
Dear Rinpoche,
I love this story very much about Kukkuripa, maybe this is because of the fact that I am a dog lover too and so this story sinks into my heart very fast.
I do not know much, but am assuming that those who choose to do meditation are with aim to gain higher attainments. Kukkuripa obviously has achieved this but he chose instead to be back to the cold dark cave just to be with his dog.
I am glad to read that later on Vajra Yogini saw this and granted him with final enlightment.
Sometimes when we are given the choices of between the good and the not-so-good, it is very tempting for us to chose the former, especially if it is a goal that we have been working very hard for. At the same time, however, it is also the time to test our dignity. Loyalty goes to both animals and humans.
I was once told that it is not a good thing for me to keep my dog sometimes ago. At that time, I already have this dog of mine for 8 years. I could have given her up for my own benefits, but thanksfully this thought went away soon and I am glad that I made this decision. I wont know if what has been said is true, but I simply feel that I couldnt given this dog up. She wont know how to take care of herself, as simple as that.
Dogs have the most sincere and pure eyes like newly born babies. She never fails to wait for me at the doorstep when I go out. Sometimes her wait for me was so long that it warmed the floor that she lied on, ….and this both pains and warms my heart at the same time.
I love both the pictures that have been posted up here. They are both very beautiful…even more beautiful is the real story behind them…:)
Amazingly one could gave up eternal happiness and countless feast just for another person, in this case is a dog. This very inspiring story is to show us that we shall not forget those who standing by our side during difficult times, these people has given us their loyalty, help and support in any kind and especially our parents. We shall never forget their effort, care and support for bringing us up. In return we shall show love, care and respect to them.
It is very difficult to be able to do what Mahasiddha Kukkuripa has done, to gave up everything which is so important, if not he won’t be meditating in that cave in a first place. May Mahasiddha Kukkuripa continue your activities for the benefit of all sentient beings.
Thank you Tsem Tulku Rinpoche for sharing this very inspiring true story.
I will chose any sentient beings than a heavenly feast. Thanks Rinpoche.
I agree with Jace. I will hesitate whether I should stay at Kechara and help my doggie in the other way round because this is something that I learnt also. But I think I will regret as well, because when I am capable to take care of my doggie but I don’t do so, I will regret to die.
It is very inspiring. Thank you Rinpoche for sharing this! Many people think dog is a dog, they always think that human is superior. I don’t agree. We should treat all animals just like our friends and family. I believe that kindness is a true nature within ourselves. We just need to develop more and more!
Thanks Rinpoche for sharing the story.
Although I love my dog, but I think stupid me will choose to stay in the heaven as like what the Dakini told Kukuripa, that when we learn and gain more knowledge, we can help the doggie in another way. That’s what I thought I have learned, that to give up whatever we attached to, for higher attainment.
But the best thing about Buddhism is, there’s never be right and wrong. Anything that arises from the heart of compassion is Buddhadharma. Thanks Rinpoche for teaching me an important lesson, we can even give up our “heaven” to show our compassion and love to another being.
That’s the true compassion. _/\_
Dear Jace, I like what you say. Thank you for inspiring me too.
Ohhhhhhhhhhh…this is so touching!! I like what Vincent had said :”I’ll choose the dog, I don’t need to be in a Heaven to be happy, what’s the point being at a pleasant place when I can’t be happy where else I can be happy in an unpleasant place.”
For me my dogs are my best friend. Kukkuripa is very firm on his decision as he know what make him hapy most. We must always think of others feelings. This story is is very inspiring. I learn that to be enlighten is not only think of yourself but others 🙂
Thank you Rinpoche for the post. Love it!
owesome story. xxx. thanks!
Thank you, Rinpoche. Thanks for sharing this story. It’s so beautiful about how much love Mahasiddha Kukkuripa has for his dog. May everyone loves their dogs like a part of the family, which they really are.
This is such a simple yet powerful teaching on abandonment when one is in a better position/place.
This story also represents how a Boddhisattva should think and act. A true Boddhisattva will not be able to stay in heaven but will continuously come back to help and be with the ones in need.
I’ll choose the dog, I don’t need to be in a Heaven to be happy, what’s the point being at a pleasant place when I can’t be happy where else I can be happy in an unpleasant place.
Loyal to one’s partner is also very important, how can I say I’m loyal to someone that I see only once in a blue moon where else I can’t be loyal to someone I see everyday.
Cheers
Vincent Cheng, you are so SPOT ON in your comments. BRAVO.
Money or Heavenly feast? Heavenly feast.
Heavenly feast or a loyal friend? loyal friend.
Thanks Rinpoche for sharing the great story.
I do not see Kukkuripa as picking his beloved dog over Kechara Paradise. He picked selflessness over self attachment. A true bodhisattva.
Poor doggie, I cannot abandon the little doggie. I will choose the dog. I pray I have the will to choose the dog if I found myself in this circumstance in future.
Dear Rinpoche,
Many thanks for sharing this wonderful and inspiring story.
Which one would I choose? I would choose the dog too but on a different level, I guess. If I know that someone I love and am loyal to is suffering because of my absence and I have a choice to return to his or her side to alleviate the pain, I would choose to return. But that’s based on my current logic and not knowing what Kechara Paradise is like. I pray that if I should ever face the same test, I will be similarly blessed with enough merits to make the same choice.
Always learning, your humble student,
Sean in Shanghai
Thank you, Rinpoche for sharing this story. As I was reading it, I thought, what a wise and compassionate Mahasiddha Kukkuripa is. Kechara Paradise was not outside of him but within him because it was not the external pleasures, comforts and attainments but his unconditional love for doggie that brought him enlightenment. How beautiful! How inspiring. 🙂
As I said before, this is my favorite Mahasiddha! Thank you again for your post!!
Dear Aron, You are most welcome. May Kukkuripa bless you to become just like him and me too!! Tsem Rinpoche