I am born again !
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We requested our followers to write us their experiences, stories and exiting articles on Buddhism in order to share it with our readers andfollowers. This is one of the article that we received on editor@thebuddhism.net to that request. We hope this is a good testimonial to those who wish to live a Buddhist life. Read the story and share it with those who you care.
I AM BORN AGAIN ! Written by Ana Soraya, TheBuddhism.net member.
About 2 years ago, I was in a very heavy depression due to alot of things. I separeted 5 years ago from my ex husband, then I met Jon Baudys who I dated for about 2 years on an off. At that time I didnt know anything about Buddhism, he was very depressed and I didnt know how to help him, because I was depressed as well. One day he message my name 8 times and I was sleeping and I couldn’t wake, then he never reply.
I waited 2 days and nothing. I went over to his house at night with my friend Alex, I was able to see his feet thru the window and he wasnt moving. I call the police and the worst has happed he was dead.
He kill himself and I found him. I became very depressed like a felt in a hole and I had no exit,
I was drinking going out and didnt care about anything not even my daughter. I was so tired of life, the sun was bright but my life was dark, sad. I tried killing myself twice. The second time I tried killing myself, was when I realize that my family care for me, my friends care for me, my daughter care for me.
I dont know why or how I came across Buddhism, I got a book explaining to me how everything works. I was very heavy medicated for depression and anxiety, but I stared to maditate, and live my present, staying in the present was very hard because I was always in the past and I had no future. I learn to stay in the present and learn how to appreciate the small things, like flowers, trees, the small animals, the sun.
I lean not to lose hope and love myself. Buddhism remind me to be myself and learn about the myself. I came across a book awakening loving kindnesses, and that book is one of my favorites because it was so many stuff I like and I get very motivated. I love life now, I dont know how I tried to kill myself before. Buddhism remind me of everything is out there and not to hold anything back. I cant change my past, or predict my future, all I know is that I should enjoy my present and open my eyes to enjoy the little things puts across my path.
And this is my story I want to share with everybody. Buddhism for me is away to see things different and to have a different way to look at life, to believe, to be happy.
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oh my gosh this is a really sad and inspiring article. I am glad she found dharma to understand herself. This is why the world needs the dharma and we owe every happiness we may have and will have to the excellent upholders of the dharma because without them it, it’s not a great existence to look forward too.
This is just the tip of the iceberg of what Buddhism can help us with, Buddhism gives us much more options when we are facing very difficult situations. Buddhism is a system of belief that does not encourage us to blame others, but to look within and investigate why such a thing happens to us?
Actually Buddhism encourages us to ask ‘WHY’ more than anything else. As if we know WHY we can decide how we want to react to a particular situation.